If you missed last week, click here. It’s gotten late, and since this is the only time to post this week, I’m diving right in!
When you’re unsure of your calling…
No matter how many good days you’ve had in ministry, it only takes one bad day to shake us up. Here are two of three things to do when you start to wonder if you’re really supposed to be doing this at all:
- Recall the beginning. When did you first know you were called to speak or write? There are three memories of events when I knew for sure. One was at a table listening to a friend in ministry when I thought, “I’d do anything if it was my full time job to talk about Jesus all day.” The second happened as I sat on a dirt floor in a slum of Kolkata telling stories of the Bible to women while they listened enraptured by His truth. The third was the first time I spoke in front of a large crowd. I was shaking in my shoes, but when it was all over, I was swept with the knowledge that I had just done what I was made to do. Those three memories are strong and clear, and I ruminate on them on tough days.
- Record the story of your calling. What has happened since then that has confirmed your calling? When I joined the P31 team, Micca Campbell was my coach, and she gave me great advice. She urged me to write down all the affirmations of my calling–comments after an event, a mentor’s encouragement, etc. I have to confess that I haven’t done it in a journal, but I have a record. I keep copies of emails and cards people send on my desk to reread in moments of despair. You’ve sent me some of the words of affirmation in that stack! Another way to do it is to make a spiritual timeline and add significant ministry events to your timeline as they happen. Years ago when I did Experiencing God, I carried a timeline like this in my Bible everywhere I went as a reminder of God’s work in and through me.
Number 3 is a biggie, so I’ll share that one in a whole post next week. Would you share some of your remembrances and recordings with us? I’d love to hear your stories of calling!